Uh Oh Education...
(Disclaimer!!
This is
going to be a long one)
This might
seem as an odd blogpost, but I really want to write about how I feel, and
hopefully help others in the whole education procedure.
This
blogpost is about trying to choose what your future is going to contain, and what
you are going to do the rest of your life (education and job wise).
See, I have
been feeling very confused, sad, pressured, and so many other things the past
year, and that is because I have had to choose, or at least think about, what I
want to do, what I want to study, and so on. That is a VERY difficult decision
to make, when you have absolutely no idea which direction you want to go.
To make you
understand exactly how confused I’ve been, here are all the different studies
I've looked at:
First, I
wanted to be a teacher - I then worked at a school for a year just to try it
out.
After three
months, I found out, that teaching was not for me.
I then
thought that I wanted to study English at Uni - because you can always use English.
At that
time, the application deadline was overdue.
I then
wanted to be a cosmetician, but my interest was not so much skincare as it is
make-up.
Now I
thought that make-up artist was the thing for me, but that is EXTREMELY
expensive.
Now my gap
year was almost over, and I began to FREAK out!
So I
applied for some universities (almost without looking at what I was going to
study)
And I got
in at a University three hours away from home, studying Danish.
Now we are
all caught up, I had my first day last Friday, and I already know that it is
not going to work for me, because all the school work + the commute + a bunch
of other things will not work in the long run.
While all
of this was going on, I was thinking that ANOTHER gap year would be viewed upon
as lazy, and like I didn't have anything in order, or planned (meaning my
life).
But TODAY I
had a long conversation with my mom and dad, and after talking for a while, I
decided to drop out of Uni and take another gap year. My parents were and are
very understanding and are completely behind me!
But this
was not an easy decision for me to make. I have always known what my next step
is, and suddenly I have no clue. I know that a lot of you are thinking that I’m
crazy, a second gap year is no big deal, and it isn't! It is the not knowing
that is hard.
I have been
forced to learn to take it easy, and have had to realise that your future isn't
something to want to rush. A huge weight was lifted from my shoulders today,
because I decided to take it easy and just see how the future enrols. I really
hope that if any of you are in the same situation as me, that this post will
make you feel like YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE STRUGGLING TO FIGURE THIS WHOLE
THING OUT. This is a very important message for me to send.
As my dad
always says "No one said that it has to be easy" but things will work
out, you just have to give it some time.
I really
hope that this will help some of you, and I’m happy if just ONE of you can
relate and has found this helpful.
If you has
come to the very end of the blogpost, WELL DONE YOU!
I’m so glad
I have this site, this space to let my feelings out.
Lots of love - Caroline
